Rindu ?

Hi Earthlings !

The most common question I get asked here is 'Tak rindu rumah ke?'.It's a big fat lie if I said that I didn't miss home.Big,fat,gigantic,enermous lie.Of course rindu rumah,my bed,my mama,my abah,my adik,my abang,my TV,my refrigerator and my 'adik-adik' as in pets.If I could,every week  I feel like mcm nak balik rumah,kalau cakap hari-hari tu mcm exaggerate sgt.But cannot meh,cuti pun limited only approximately one week if semester break.I'm learning to live with the fact that,after raya haji nnti January plk bru jumpa rumah.Kalau cuti around 3 to 4 days mcm not worth it la nk balik sbb kejap je.Balik by bas pun dah almost half day perjalanan,(my hometown is Kelantan)then how many quality hours boleh spent?Rindu sumpah rindu.But there's nothing I can do.Literally nothing.So that's why I contacted my mom almost every week,make some time calling her tp sometimes mama plk yg didn't answered my phone :") The first time I went to pasar tani,I end up buying Pulut Mangga,Nasi Ambeng and Takoyaki.Those food that I bought literally my family's favorite.My bro loves pulut mangga,my mama's is nasi ambeng and my sister loves takoyaki.There's kambing golek sort of la but too pricey for me,kambing golek is my abah's fav.I realised that none of the food I bought is my fav and made me realise how much I miss them.It hits me hard.When my brother was at Kepong,I didn't quite miss him because he usually pick me up during weekend and we went out to have dinner or he will accompany me buy my neccessities.But now,dia dah smbung belajar dkt Johor made me miss him even more!Dah tak de transport nk keluar pergi beli barang :"( and kena naik bas or taxi,melayang sudah itu duit maa.

Sometimes I felt like mcm belajar overseas dah,(dramatic tak?) sbb jarang balik but overseas' students kalau balik mau 3 bulan doh,but me a week aja.A week pun a week la drpd takde kan.Sometimes kalau rindu sgt,if otp with my mom or adik ada jugak la air mata tu huhu.
But know I felt like I'm used to it kot,kalau tk leh nk cope pun acah-acah busy la so that I don't think too much.I still ask permission dkt my mom if I want to go out somewhere beli barang or lepaking with kawan-kawan,and she will said "bagus anak mama ni" huhuhu . because,when I was in Kelantan,at home lah senang,susah mehhh nk keluar and memang jarang keluar sbb mama will ask tons of questions and I already her answer must  be no.Tapi kat sini mcm senang skit kalau nk keluar,but I don't take it for granted la.Mentang-mentang mama dah bg keluar,every week keluar.When needed or when I feel like bosan mcm porcine dkt kolej then kita lepak gais. I still ask my mom's permission kalau nk keluar even though dah msuk uni not to say that I'm so solehah just because I want my parents to know they raised their daughter well.

I still remember before taking this picture mama said "tok leh amik gmbr molek skit ko?" because I keep making that ugly (my usual gambar face) and both me and my sister did this pose and I kept my usual gambar face.lol,sorry ma.

Terlalu rindu,terlalu rindu
Jujur aku terlalu rindu,
Tiada lain selain rindu.

Laters,baby